A new chapter

"Get a job and start growing old,
drop your guns and stop being bold,
set your standards just a little low,
and find yourself a laughable ho."
By Boon.


Life has really changed, though I'm not sure for better or worse, and I find myself reduced to this pinot noiring, pastel random-splatter-of-hues painting, soulless zombie. But at least I have plans, not just for tomorrow but, for my future. Which is a good sign of optimism if you look at it in good lighting.

I thought of challenging one of my friend's view of life recently, and was actually shocked to find out that despite that acute sense of aimlessness, most of his thoughts echo a population of apathetics. I'm aware now people out there are hungry not just for money, sex, entertainment or capitalistic indulgences - but also meaning, reason and faith. I see this as a result of having a secular government.

I'm not a supporter of a religious government or spiritual leadership but I theorize that such a government would better set 'a culture of faith', one that does not derail its population's steadfast belief in their gods (or god, if you pray to a monotheistic one). The reasoning behind this is simple, of which there are two points that I find more illustrative.

The first and more prominent reason is, of course, people find that their egoistical faiths are not (atheistic pun aside) the centre of their shallow universes. They will choke on the knowledge that there are other religion and faiths and beliefs, after the Heinrich Manoeuvre, they swallow this fact and begin to explore their counterparts' beliefs. And Viola! What would you think if you find a better tool for digging, a better road to travel on, or a better faith to believe in.

Chances are the people will... NOT switch their faith.
Aha! Gotcha right there. There's a trait called loyalty, and let me tell you it is a grumpy obligation that bind a person to her faith despite how flawed that belief system is. The end result is a person not contented with her existing religion/faith but stubbornly sticks to it, stand up for it and die by it. This always reminds me of marriage - you love that other half so much despite the wrinkled skin, that broken smile, that imperfect body and conflict of interests. This state of perpetual 'I don't know how to describe it' will lead to apathy until.... some reader challenge my interpretation and inference. =)

The second point is more... to... the... point? Lets say you strongly believe in something, say... a man could walk on water and was conceived from a virgin, which has fiction (or more pointedly, absurdity) written all over it and you would die for these beliefs. One day you meet a guy whose belief system include a white flying horse and dying for his religion will yield 46 (or was it 47?) virgins waiting for him, in his hypothetical heaven.

At the above mentioned sentence-point, more than 90% of the population will laugh at the other guy's religion as absurd, simplistic and whatever negative connotations you can think of. But they will all realize, along with the other 10%, that theirs' is also a ridiculous religion. If Religion guides your life, and you find out how meaningless it is, because people without it can have moral values and display traits like honesty, patriotism and love without the need for religion - what becomes of your religion, your faith, your belief system?

It all points towards a empty shell of an organic vessel, whose thoughts are random interaction of neurons and functions (and existence itself) are unknown. In a nutshell, your belief systems are demolished when it collide with another.

Funny that a post that should be just one paragraph morphs into something that is eating into my night running time. I'm that random. Next time you see a paragraph that starts with "I thought", "I think" or "As I recall", please brace yourself for impromptu strings of deep thoughts.

For now, I have to start running again, (given the weather, its called frolicking in the rain).



Your songs I'll write it all,
if deeper in love you'd fall,
Boon.